This post is all about Tom. I found Tom, yes, admittedly, very soon after I left Jaden. However, I refuse to feel guilty as Jaden and I were over already and Jaden had also cheated on me horrifically and practically ruined my life. Tom was a breath of fresh air during a time that was… Continue reading Tom
TRIGGER WARNING THROUGHOUT On Wednesday 21st June, 2017, I tried to kill myself. I took a handful of sertraline (promptly puked up), two 28mg packets of aripriprazole and cut my forearm to shreds. I waited in the forest for the end. I watched a circle of light through the trees that was miraculously formed by… Continue reading The day I tried to die
TRIGGER WARNING ~ These are a few diary excerpts of mine I found. Figured people should see the perspective of a mentally insufficient person, maybe some people identify with how I felt. They made me sad. This really is what you call "laying bare". 3rd November 2016 - Saw Sharon today, we discussed dissociating, not… Continue reading Diary excerpts of the mentally ill
This post is about Lu, my best friend. She has her own blog on a different website and I read it and it really made me think. She's so precious and I wish she'd know how much I love her. She's an angel of the highest kind, she's so beautiful inside and undoubtedly, out as… Continue reading Thinking about Lu
TRIGGER WARNING So Jaden really hurt me. Not only Jaden, but my friends. The issue is that I still care about him way too much. I can't leave him be. I don't want to leave him be. I don't want to not have Jaden in my life. So we talked. My main hurt was that… Continue reading The conclusion to this dilemma?
So I guess my last post was a bit of a cliffhanger but honestly, that's what it felt like when I found out. So I was sitting in Jaden's garden with him and his mum, Becky. We were chatting about normal things and everything was mostly fine. Then Becky asks Jaden to go inside. She… Continue reading What happened next.
This entry is about Jaden. My boyfriend. See, the thing about Jaden is that he's infectious. His laughter, his smile, his happiness, his sadness. We met through Pod. He was too shy to talk to me but had admired me for a while. A situation I had experience with. It was all rather storybook and… Continue reading What prompted this blog?